Day13

Yesterday I go Brian there cut short my hair

When my hair cut short,

I feel my heart bleeding

I feel memories go.

I say I will have long hair for you

I want let you see how pretty am I with long hair

Now I cut short,

not to give up our relationship

not to give up our friendship

not to give up our future

but 

to have long hair again to wait for you

No matter how long,

I will not cut my hair ad.

I want to leave long to wait for u

Last night

I ask my friend

My friend says that I am too harsh to you

I am too bad to you

I am too pressure you

I am too stress you

I am so selfish.

Ask me give u time

u need time

to reflect back

to reflect back our memories

to reflect back our love

to reflect back about us.

Ya that's why I choose to wait

without any message, any call

Just to keep quiet, just to be there support you

I know 

u might think that I give up our relationship

think that u hurt me badly

Seriously

we need this break up

to let both of us wake up

I know I need

I dont know you

I not blaming anyone.

Everyone ask me give up u..

But I know you are the right person for me

I dont know what u think now

When I want find someone to talk to 

I found that I find no one

that know inside me..

that know my everything

I love the way u smile

I love the way u cheer me up

I love the way u love me

Sorry for hurting u so bad

Please smile again.

Jiayou. I know this is your peak period to study for exam.

Jiayou. You always the best for me.

*Hug U*

hugging before you go exam~ :*

If got chance,

I will not treat you like this again.

If got chance,

I will not compare again.

If got chance, 

I will not say break up.

If got chance,

I will not quarrel over one day.

If got chance, 

I will love you more and more

If got chance,

I will reply all your messages.

If got chance,

I will not isolate you.

If got chance,

I will treat you all my best

But there is no if..

and I know you know I am waiting for you..

and I know you know I am changing for you..

第12天

Bb,
你去考试了吗？
I had prayed for you.. :)

Everytime I miss you

I will look back our photos

Still remember this photo

Universal studio foodcourt there capture one

hehe

Why u so cute and handsome..

I love you oo..

我要去roadshow了。

bring along your jacket.

just like you beside me

I need to be strong enough to be alone

then I can be strong enough to back to your side

I know

in future

We will be busy for 

working. studying.

I cannot like this keep lying beside you

I cannot like this keep arguing why u not at my side

I cannot be not considerate

Our memories too beautiful till

I forget my grief, my sadness.

I start to be good to myself,

I know I need to be strong to take care myself.

That is what u wish me to.

Sorry for your first wish.

I can't fulfill you

For me, you are always the best man for me :)

Time is slow for me.

Waiting is long..

But i choose to wait

because you are the one 

I want to wait for :D

11th day 2

How's ur exam today?
My bb sure can do it one right?
hehe love you bb!
u are the best
How I wish I can hug u and tell you about this

Tonight badminton release more.
After talking to many people today,
they say they can still feel some hope in our relationship :)
Yes I wish to.
They say I am really very bad
Yes I know.
They say how can your boyfriend tahan you so long.
Yes I know he is the only one
Haha..I know I am too over..

Today roadshow I keep thinking about you by my side haha
I steal the jacket from you
Do you know?
I know u busy till dont know
What ever
That's belongs to me ad :P
Punishment for leaving me
hehe

Tomorrow another day
Bb, keep it up
Dont give up easily
I know you stress and
sorry for not being at your side.
I will work hard to be a better person for you..
My love, my only love :D

第11天

十一天的想念

我想你

你想我吗

曾近的你只为我微笑

现在的你还在笑吗

I am so scared that I even take away your smile.

Yesterday go Brian there cut hair

He asked about you

But I pretend that you at house studying

you at house

you at house

I think this is the only way that I can still have you as my boyfriend

Not to explain

Not to tell anyone

I ask myself to be strong enough to wait you back

to wait u find me

This is the only way I can love you for now.

Is 3 months long?

Yes..For me one day is long enough

Because I love you

I am willing to do for you..

I m u

I m u

cdrl2pk

pk2cdrl

Our codes.

Do u still feel anything?

Or the memories ad bcm rubbish for you..

I am so scared I cant wait you back

I am so scared I lost someone to talk to

Someone that willing to listen to my blablabla

Do you willing to be the one again..

I miss u

I only can listen to your voice note

I miss you 

I only can see you through photo..

I love you

I only can wait for you

I love you

I only can let you quiet and no stress and burden..

I love you

I only can let you go for now..

Today u exam

jiayou ya.

Fighting my bb..hehe

you are the best

muaskssssss

love you love you

hughug

I also go cellglo roadshow liao

We fight for our future together :)

第十天2

我问自己

我还是你那个最佳女友吗

对自己开始质疑

我承认

近一年来

对你的疏忽

对你的冷淡

就因为

该死的

自以为你懂我

所以不需要联系感情

我承认

近一年来

对你的付出

渐渐变少

现在的我就好像当初的你

我在体验你的心情

我承认

对你的脾气

越来越坏

越来越不能体谅你

越来越不能为你想

我是爱你的

只是忽略了你的感受

对不起

让你为我流泪

我不会再让你为我流泪

这次换我为你等待

不一样的是

那时的你知道我是爱你的

可现在的我知道你已经不爱

我该如何

把你挽回

不再哭泣

不想打扰朋友

不想让朋友家人担心

昨晚ahying问我

为什么回信息这么冷淡

我说

我知道错了

拍拖

是两个人的事

我却把它当做是你的事

你回十几封

我回一两封

为什么我这么坏

我好像不能原谅这样的我

爱情没有如果

爱情没有可是

过了就过了

这时候的你

我对你来说

什么都不是

这时候的我

对你来说

完全不重要

我爱你

你却不爱我了

你却不要我了

好想有个人告诉我

我们还有未来

我们还有明天

我们不只这样

你可不可以告诉我

心情已经平复

谢谢你的爱

给我如此美好的回忆

我真的舍不得你

更舍不得放下我们的回忆。。

亲爱的

明天考试加油

这几天读书

辛苦你了

我一直在这里支持你

亲一个，给你energy :'(....

你是我最棒的宝贝

第10天

I keep flip back our photos
I ask myself
is me too care our memories
or I love you too much

my happiness always from you

you leave me

how i go to find my happiness

You always my right person

for me

I tot we will sit on the wheelchairs together

I tot we will hold hands forever

I tot we will love forever

I tot we will forever

and ever

I dont ever think of that we will break up

because of my selfishness

take away your freedom

take away your uni life

take away your love towards me

I always you are my true love

I dont know you will choose to give up me..

give up our relationship..

give up everything..

Just i hurt u too badly

I miss u

I miss u

I miss u

I keep shouting in my heart

Why no use

Why no use

Why u not coming back

I hate morning

always bad mood

What can I do to get your smile back

Let u go

is it the best choice?

Without me,

u will get happy?

If u tell me again the same answer,

I not sure I can tahan or not..

If you ever turn back,

remember i will always stand here await you

Love you forever, my boy :)

他不懂 第九天

他永远不懂
为什么会那么依赖他，
那是因为把他当做唯一最信赖的人

他永远不懂
为什么会爱生气
只是想要他来哄她，
体会对他的爱

他永远不懂
为什么爱念他，
只是关心他的健康，
担心他的身体

 他永远不懂
为什么这么多眼泪
因为把所有委屈化作眼泪
把所有温柔都给了你

他永远不懂
为什么愿意为他东奔西跑，做很多事
不是为了显示自己强
只是爱你
愿意为你做

他永远不懂
为什么想知道他的一切
不是在乎他的过去
那是因为
想了解他，更好的爱他

他永远不懂
女人的爱原来可以这么深，
一旦爱上就不能自己，
把痛隐藏那么深
为了不带给你困扰
宁愿用泪水将自己催眠

他永远不懂
为什么愿意跟你好好分手，
那是因为感觉不到你的爱
不会缠着你
不想你为难
只要你快乐
他愿意放手