8th Day

Leaving u for eight days ad
Seriously it still suffered for me
I cannot accept the truth
that U tell me u want to leave me alone
Heart broken

It's time to change
This morning although suffered for me
I try to smile to myself
I can do it
I am Felix's Bby before
What else I cannot do

Ya I know it's hard
Luckily I have the love from everyone who loves me
I need to be stronger
I need to be alive
to be someone worth to be loved

I love you.
Nothing else I can do now
just to let you go
just to let you less burden
just to let you happy
just to let you no stress

Sorry for this period
I let you so suffered
I love you till blind
but still not enough to let me change for you at that time
Why everything makes me so regret, guilty and bad..
I know it's my fault

I angry you to be so selfish not to discuss with me
I angry you to be so selfish not to find me
I angry you to be so selfish to take all the feelings with you in these three months
I angry you to be so selfish not to share anything with anyone and just break like this
I angry..
I really angry you..

Can you come back again now?
I ask the same question again
but i know there is no use u come back at this moment
Both of us will have grief in our hearts
Both of us will remember this moment
Both of us will suffer to make each other so sad
Both of us will regret

If there is no break up, I think..
Everything is still remain the same
I am still selfish to change for me
I am not tolerance enough
I am not good enough
I will still have same patterns
I will still behave badly towards you..

I need to walk out
I need to have new life
I need to show him and everyone my changes
I need to live well
I need to be a better girl for him
I need to be a more tolerance and understandable person
I need to be...

Everything said out so easy
but when work out it feels hard.
Love does helps me pass through all these
I know
I love you :)