Day 25

生日那天，你还在含情脉脉看着我

我问我自己

我变了多少

让自己失去自我

变得无理取闹

霸道

任性

固执

我在寻找真我

不被外来事物影响

真正的自己

I suddenly think of danny's words

he says

girls always sad sad then happy

guys always happy happy then sad

haha i feel funny..but it console my heart

Yesterday nightmare so scary

I dream about you married an unknown girl

because u make her pregnant

and ask me wish you

you so thin and black..

You smile at me..

I feel so no power..

sad and sad

morning want cry so badly..

finally after work i cry.

but i tell myself to not control by emotions, thinking and body

it's just a dream

i console myself

say

if you dont want give up 

then you need to believe.

Believe can make things happened.

you need to have positive energy to attract him..

positive can attract people..

I cant do much

but at least I have time to wait.. 

I know what to do.. just the time so slow..

so suffer..23 days more..

I believe I can be happier happier and happier..

Dont look back

Dont think back

Things ad happened 

things ad past

there is no point to regret anymore

sorry cant heal

sorry cant use.

need move on and find yourself

change to be better

and he will back.. :)