Day 28

I go back facebook and see the caption for this photo
当我告诉他，我的梦，他没有嘲笑我的单纯，无知，说 他一定会为我圆梦和我一起编织我们的梦

I see and cry
haha
You say,
you will help me achieve all my dreams..
now you leave me and achieve myself..
it's ok..
I can try myself :)

Btw
your birthday wishes i will help you achieve
First find a better man is it
ok. then i wait you become better
then i find you
So, first one achieved

Second, wish me healthy and learnt to take care myself is it
I join dance class and jog for sometimes and eat healthily
I learnt to live by my own
I learnt to be independent
So, second also achieved

Third, you wish ur exam passed and get a good job
this one ..i wait we be together i will be at ur side
support you, accompany you and help you as much as i can..

Now, i will be here support you
I know your exam ad passed
and might be the paper is returned back
and might be the results is good
or not good
but i cant do nothing

I have no reason to stay
I have no reason to support at this moment..

When u text me
are you free tonight?
I actually very exciting
I actually can spare time for you
but I havent prepared
I scare i lost control

then few minutes, you say, want go jeng shop
actually i want go too
just i havent prepared
just i dont want put so much expectations
i scared ..being rejected.
I thought I had prepared for everything
I tell myself 1 month havent past
dont do anything

you say, want return me umbrella
i suddenly moody
is it your real motive?
why is umbrella?
dont have other reasons?
it's hurt..

i reject...since i have other activities and I havent prepared..
I choose to reject and prepared for next meet up..
But it's not now..

I know we will be together..
Just it's not now..
I know..
I believe we will be together again..
I believe :)

I will be better and better
better till you will be together with me